25 in Review.

For my birthday I wanted to write about my last year and what I’ve done, just to keep track of where I am in this moment.

I’ve tried my best to slow down and attempt to heal some things that I’ve been putting off for a few years. I tend to put any personal progress on the back burner when Ethan is going through flare ups, so I’ve been trying to focus on myself again and create goals. 

I have made it a goal to focus more on my body, taking care of it, and listening to it better. I have focused a lot on trying to work through my PCOS and figure out what vitamins help with inflammation and irritation. Through this process I recently found out that I have endometriosis. I’m actually pretty relieved by the diagnosis because it means I have an answer. I have also tried to adjust my sleep schedule so it is more steady, but I am EXHAUSTED all of the time. I did a sleep study but it was pretty useless honestly. 

I’m trying to get into crafts and hobbies again, which is uncomfortable. I’ve been in fight or flight mode for so long, and art feels too vulnerable sometimes, but it’s been very good for me. I’ve been trying a lot of new food stuff. I forgot how much I like to cook and bake. I’ve also gone antiquing quite a bit. 

I got into my first car crash. It was a good learning experience, but also infuriating.

My childhood dog passed away. He is the only dog I will probably ever own. I’m not a dog person, but he was the best boy. 

Me and Ethan took a few bigger trips this year and it was really good for us! Traveling is so scary because I’m always concerned that Ethan will have a problem and we won’t have the resources available to fix it. We want to take more trips and work through this anxiety.

I’ve solidified my face care routine and it makes me very happy. I don’t even care if it does anything as long as it makes me happy. I’m trying to figure out my hair now, which is considerably harder I think. 

I became an Amazon influencer. I just do it when I feel like it so I don’t make a lot, but it’s been fun!

I went to Bear World and that place solved most of my problems, I swear. 

My top 5 artists of 25 have been Sabrina Carpenter, Olivia Rodrigo, Chappell Roan, Kendrick Lamar, and Doechii. I’ve been trying to listen to albums start to finish which has been really fun.

Me and Ethan celebrated our 5th anniversary! It feels like we’ve been married for 5 seconds but also 500 years. He is the best.

Baby Peter was born. I’m so obsessed with my 2 little bestie boys. They are one of the biggest highlights of my life. I’m not sure if Ethan and I will ever be able to have children, which has been really hard emotionally. 

I am a proud owner of the Lenox Spice Village! This is probably one of the biggest highlights of the year, lol. 

I learned how to blow a bubble inside of a bubble with bubblegum. I am still working on learning to gleek on command. 

I’m graduating with my Bachelor’s degree in just a few weeks. I’ll start my MBA with an emphasis in Healthcare administration this summer. I hope that this brings some good opportunities for the future of my career. 

I hope that the next year brings more growth and healing. I want to feel comfortable inside of my own brain again. I want to do lots of crafts and make new friends and read so many books. I feel like an awkward teenager again trying to find my place in the world.